This is not a pity post in the slightest. While, I was fired from a job that I thought I was doing well at, took a millennial employee under my wing, and stood up to my boss for an injustice, I’m not here to talk about any of that. I’m also not here to discuss these and other dramas that are now behind me. I shall rise above and look for the brighter side of life.
When I was a kid, and things were down, there was always two things that were constant– the grass and the stars. While light pollution makes it impossible to find shooting stars to wish upon, there’s a plethora of four leaf clovers out there to find. And since I now have a little bit of free time, I can patiently find one. A sign to keep going. A reflection of luck… something I feel that I need… or could use. My Grandfather used to tell me that if I didn’t have bad luck, I wouldn’t have any luck at all. Superstitions, and any ounce of needing to believe in something, can help heal in troubled times.
Yesterday, as luck would have it (See what I did there?), I found that special clover. Sitting in the driveway waiting for me when I got out of my car. I looked down and there it was. I exclaimed an expletive deleted and jumped for joy! I finally found the something to wish on, like a younger me would. A message that things are going to be ok.
I also found a bunch of hawk feathers. Which, after looking up the meaning behind them symbolizes the need to let go of control and surrender. To stop. To take it all in. To listen. This is now the perfect opportunity for me to take some time to fully figure things out for our 5 year plan. Do I want to go back into a stuffy work environment, find a position to utilize my college degree, work part-time, or take a variety of temporary jobs? Take Modern Day Homesteading to new heights? Have a food truck? This is one of the hardest decisions right now, but the universe is telling me it’s going to be just fine.